Sharing your thoughts, perspectives, feelings, desires, and visions can be daunting sometimes…
because face it. Who cares?
I think people ask you how you are doing either because you checked on them first or out of mere formality not because they really want to know.
At times you have this void that needs to be filled and as an overthinker, you have nothing but thoughts to fill it.
Your mind gets so heavy sometimes that you have to get it all out in order to focus on other tasks.
The shell of who you are leaves this gap of emptiness and all you long for is someone who understands you as you.
Will they be interested long enough to invest?
Like I said face the music. They won’t.
Everyone wants something even if they do not seem like it at first.
And sometimes you crave something so badly that you mistakenly choose a parasital relationship because you think they are giving you what the person you want it from isn’t giving.
They do one thing. They take the initiative and it’s after you are sucked in you realize that they had an agenda.
And that leaves you broken, bitter, and untrusting.
Such a feat is so strong that you just want to run away.
And maybe you should, ’cause what else is there?
You can’t seem to find it where you are, why not a change of location?
If that doesn’t work, Give up!
The emptiness wins again.
The danger of the unfilled space takes you in again.
The emptiness widens and you can do nothing but allow it to consume you.
At least here you know what you are getting
At least you know where you are going.
The room is dark and you can’t see your outstretched arms…
Feeling. Feeling in the darkness,
Desperate to feel something.
Desperate to feel anything.
You open your arms and heart to the danger you know so well.
Lacuna the gap compounded joy.
Lacuna the need to embrace the empty and lonely.
ACCEPT. Do not reject. No one cares.
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