These thoughts on paper I want to let them be because they are consuming.
The inner turmoil of longing to experience you is devouring my being.
The push and pull of desires so keen,
Has me in a mental state calm and surreal.
I wonder if you understand me, or even see my position…
I don’t want to be infiltrating or misrepresenting because what I feel for you is growing.
I am trying to keep it at bay, but I am losing.
In an enveloping state, I know that what’s best for us both is if I were to stay away.
Distance right now is our friend and no matter how much I want to get close, my concern is not wanting to hurt you.
You feel to me like a gem worth protecting,
Braving the unprecedented torture with bated breath because I am really struggling.
Struggling not to let you in, because I know me.
Everyone else and all other interests have faded away because I have my sights set on you.
I shift occasionally to adjust my view, but your mark is becoming unerasable.
Frozen in place, thoughts raid my mind, and I watch them linger longer each time.
When they linger, I wonder why this couldn’t have been easier.
Had my attraction to you been purely physical, the desires would’ve been gone in a day
but you are seeping into my bones and with every movement you linger.
I anticipate seeing your smile in real-time but that might very well be a recipe for disaster because my thoughts may get the best of me.
The pros and cons of you can only be rejected by you, because baby, I am already walking in.
🔥 love it.